Parent Trouble; Should I Get Help?

[Darkpelt11]

Hi, I'm fourteen and looking for some advice on my parents and somewhat my brother. I am a teenager so it may be hormones but my friend says that I truly have depression and from many quizzes, books and info, I believe I do.
My parents can be very kind, taking me places and saying they love me and yet they can also be mean. My father yells sometimes and also never really notices that I'm hurt, changing it to himself. My Mother says to talk to her and care and yet she doesn't and my brother is very very emotionally abusive, saying hateful things and sometimes hurting me physically.

This is my first time asking a question so I hope it's not to long and stupid....
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Like; my mother will say I should talk to her about my feelings and yet when I do, she looks bored or annoyed and says I'm just a stupid overreacting teen. I haven't told her about my thoughts of suicide but I told her I think I'm depressed and she yelled at me, saying to never say it again and that I'm not...

Two; She tells me all the time whenever I try to get to go away from my brother that I'm a jerk or a b**CH (sorry for the langue) and I feel really put down for it. My brother is younger and very mean, he likes to embarrassed me and make me feel bad about myself but then if I tell him to go away or stop, my mother gets mad at me...

Three: I have only four friends and I'm losing three slowly.... I had another but she's gone all punk and left me... My mother gets very growling and does silent treatment whenever I'm going to a friend's house or coming home. I sometimes want to never have friends because of this but then she gets all sweet and lovely and says I should have friends... And then yells at me when I ask to hang with only my friends, not Alex because he's a spazz and rude to me... And then she gets mad and says he has no friends and yet, he has eight, plus he's super social...

Four; I'm put down for my hobbies. My brother sings and likes music, which is what my mother did but I draw and paint, some of which is gore and she looks at it and looks disgusted or looks annoyed... When I don't share what I do, she also gets upset.

Five; Trying to get help I'd hard. I can barely speak to her because she gets annoyed or says I'm overreacting and to get over it. Sense I'm a girl she'll also do the, what month is it thing to me. She gets mad that I don't speak to her and yet I feel so pushed away I can't. She also gets mad when I don't speak about friends but does the same thing of getting annoyed when I do speak. When I tell her this, she lays the guilt on me, saying it's always her fault and it makes me feel horrible for talking...

Sorry, this is super long and I don't want it to get in trouble but I really need another person's thoughts that's not my friends who are all also younger.

[Islay]

Gness that was a really nice response x

[gness]

Thank you, Islay.....

And Darkpelt for a BA.....I'd like to hear how things work out for you.....Gx

[pixie374]

Perfect BA... x