I'm In Bits

[pastafreak]

Sammi has been showing some signs of agression...mostly food guarding. Common in ex racers as they basically live in prison and isolation. They never share anything. He had been improving until about 2 weeks ago when he growled/snapped for seemingly no reason. This was with food, toys and 2x when I was just standing near him. Out of the blue he became quite agressive this morning...I was cornered by my front door...got nipped thru my jeans. Called behaviourist...it was to be arranged that he would be collected. After speaking to several representatives of the rescue, I was then told that with this being recurring behaviour that was getting worse...he would have to be put down. They, as a charity, would face legal action if they rehomed him. And maybe his fears would take over again. I feel so, so sad...but TBH I was becoming quite afraid of him.
I can't think of anything else I could do...and wonder why he was so extreme.

[pastafreak]

Thanks again.
DT...I was working with the rescue's behaviourist. He'd improved, but then became worse. I just couldn't live with him...I was becoming quite fearful. He would have felt that.

[choux]

May I say that is a wise and proper view to take. Neither yours nor Sammi's fault, just a dreadful outcome x

[jakep]

I am really upset for you and for what you have to go through tomorrow.
It truly is the best thing for Sammi. You would never have been able to fully relax with him. He is, unfortunately, a damaged soul. Like us, they deal with bad things differently. Love him, let him go and, in the fullness of time, forgive yourself. You have done nothing wrong x

[Cloverjo]

So sad, pasta. I’ve never owned dogs, but I’ve had a couple of rescue cats that were aggressive and I had to let go.
I can imagine how upset you are.

[Mozz71]

I'm so sorry Jo. You did your best for Sammi, but if she was getting worse, your hands really were tied. *hugs*

[Mozz71]

Sorry, Pasta. Why the hell I addressed that to Jo, I don't know. *hugs for you too*

[pastafreak]

Don't worry mozz...my brain is doing the same. Half a bottle of red...so far...will do it ;)

[LadyCG]

Has Sammi 'gone' Pasta?

[bunkmoreland]

So sorry to read this pasta,I had been following all you had written. You went beyond, but, once you become afraid of them and they are dominant,there is no other end result:-( Bless you for the kind hearted person you are.

[pastafreak]

Yes LadyCG...and I keep mentally shouting " I'm sorry!!," I just want to turn the clock back and make things better...and I can't. Nothing can change what I did...and what I HAD to do.

Thank you bunkmoreland for your kind words.

[Theland]

So sorry for you Pasta.
We all know you did your best, but in fact, consider that his illness was indeed terminal, and you did the kindest thing to stop his suffering.
You invested so much love into his care, and I only wish there were many more loving dog owners as you.
God bless you Pasta. X

[lankeela]

Nice sentiments Theland.