Cant Get Thoughts Out Of My Head

[fruitsalad]

Thankfully this sort of thing hasn't happened to me often, I visited an elderly ladies home the other evening, as I have done some cleaning and odd jobs for her, I let myself in and called out to her, and see she was having a seizure in the chair, and her eyes rolled back, couldn't speak, or I presume hear me, I called 999 they took her off to hospital, but she died a day later, It keeps going round in my head and I keep seeing her in this distressed state in my mind. Will this start to fade in time.

[lady-janine]

Don't think something like this memory ever leaves you but hopefully it will fade with time. I don't want to go into it but have a good reason for saying this. Take care and get some help.

[Khandro]

Would it be possible to get a photograph of her? perhaps smiling, (as most photos are) it would be something to look at & think about her looking happy & not as you last found her.
If not, try to visualise her as you knew her alive & well.

There are Buddhist meditation techniques similar to this, one on equanimity comes to mind.