Here is the feeling I’m talking about: I listened or watch certain products (mainly those that are only listened to or viewed by females or kids), and then I get this very uncomfortable feeling like I’m doing something wrong or question my self why I am associating myself with this stuff.
it can’t be because O care about what others might think, because honestly, I have had no interest in making friends for years, and usually prefer just being alone a lot of the time. Plus, I know that because of my personality traits and other interests, I will not be able make friendship last for long. So really, I have had no interest in making new friends!
Yet for some reason, I get these uncomfortable feelings for listening/watching something that will get me teased or bullied. Im assuming the feeling is guilty (making the music/films/TV shows I listen to be guilty pleasures), but what do you all think?
Hang on.... I'm not disappearing down that rabbit-hole with you, again.
I have no idea quite what you are feeling, or why. You are over-analysing and have spend months/years doing so. Has anybody teased/bullied you thusfar?
If not, put your energies into enjoying your secret pleasures and ignore the rest.
The nearest I can come up with is, indeed, "guilty pleasure"...which lots of people have.
However, there is absolutely no need to feel guilty about what pleases you...you need to stop analysing yourself (as jth has already said) and just get on and enjoy the things that you like. Nobody else really matters!
I would describe this feeling as something that you seem to want to have, you have had it often in the past. As everyone keeps telling you, stop dwelling on it. You're giving yourself needless worry - and previous answers have done nothing to reassure you, so I expect you will gain nothing, learn nothing, from the latest lot.