Feel depressed at the mo and I'm terrible with binging and really feeling it. I have binge drunk every night for the past,,,,, 10 days. (Not since Monday when my son got back from his other grandparents) I have eaten toast with butter (8+ slices one after the other) and then a whole pizza at night every night for the past 14 days. When I'm not drinking alcohol, I'm addicted to diet coke. I really can't stop it, it's so hard. My binge eating upsets me the most, I'm only 8.7lb (well I was last week, this week I'm 9st) so I know when people say, oh, its alright for you, you need to put weight on. It is frightening and they don't understand. Once I start I can't stop so I'm almost scared to start eating in the morning so I hold out for as long as I can. Some days I manage to get through without anything but 20 odd cigarettes and black coffee/diet coke. I know it is extremely bad for me, i'm not stupid, it just feels out of my control. I have been to the docs about 4 times in the past 2 months now in tears about this but I'm still in the same situation. Sorry, I've completely gone off track.