depressed....

[sair5412]

. I don't feel that i could even apply for another job for fear of rejection or fear of starting somewhere else and not being mentally strong enough to go in and end up being sacked. I am snapping at my son when he does the slightest thing wrong or i am being so vacant and hardly talking to him somedays (which i feel so terribly guilty about) because i feel that all of my energy is going on physically looking after him, making sure he is at school with clean clothes and he is being washed and fed, after that i feel exhausted. My memory is terrible and i am forgetting what i am saying mid sentence or why i am in a certain room. i try and do several tasks at once and end up with half filled in forms and mess everywhere and nothing actually complete. I can't make the simplest of decisions such as in the shop the other day, the assistant asked me if i wanted a carrier bag and i could not make up my mind for about 20 seconds. I felt so stupid. I haven't been out for a few weeks now and i went out with some friends on saturday night and just felt like screaming at everyone. I was just holding back the tears all night when i saw all these people around me having fun and being happy and i just wished i could too.

[crete]

hi sair see you first post for some answers

[redcrx]

sair,
the memory thing could also just be down to having a child. M<y son is almost 2 and i have memory lapses, forget words and what Im trying to say.
Im not trying to say that youre not suffering, but some things may well be normal things that seem blown out of all proportion because of your depression rather than symptoms of your depression.
Take one thing at a time and complete it. Dont try to do too much at once as failure to complete it will add to your woes. Pick one item that needs to be done and dont pick anything else up until its done. It may help to focus the mind.