There is no GOD!

[muchlovex]

If there was a god he wouldn't let my mum suffer they way she is. She has battled cancer for nearly 2 years and it is spreading. She has to deal with that, the chemo and she can't walk anymore due to major complications with Thrombosis in both her legs.

If there was a god, he would not allow all of this suffering for my lovelly mum.

[rabbitygirl]

All who have gone thru this need to know why so much suffering. When my old Dad was diagnosed we all knew the outcome including him. The hospital gave him about 5 months. His GP tried everything to keep him going, radiotherapy (till he refused because being on the table made him cry out), steroids to help his strength, and suggested chemo which Dad said no to. We both asked the doc to stop trying so hard. Dad would cry and ask me why he kept waking in the morning - he just wanted to go. When he did, 3 weeks b4 Xmas, his doc said 'Oh and I thought he would see Xmas'. In fact the hospital said July and I just wish God had called him then and wonder why he didn't.

[Baby Jane]

All this pain, its so sad. Its a strange way to be "part of a group" so to speak. We all feel our own and each others heartache. I would like to thank everyone of my friends an AB who give support to muchlovex,myself and all who have told of their loved ones.
BJ xx

[tigwig]

Just to let you all know my mum in law finally passed away last night after 12 days of suffering in the hospice not to mention the months before. Obviously we are all devastated but there is some relief now knowing she is no longer in pain and is now at peace.
muchlovex please keep in touch and let me know how you are getting on once again I am so sorry about you mum and hope her pain gets managed so she can try and enjoy life as much as possible. That is something my mum in law never got the chance to do and the time you have with her now is so precious so make the most of it xxx

[Baby Jane]

tigwig

So sorry darlin, love to you and the family.

[muchlovex]

My heart goes out to all of you who are in a similar situation. Thank you for your support also.

I just feel totally upset, angry and lost, all of the time. I thought I was stronger than this, but clearly not. I am fine when I am with mum; it�s when I am at work or home when I feel this way.

Mum still does not know that the C has gone to her stomach and that she has months to live. I can sense that mum seems to know, just the way she looks at me. I spoke to the Onconolgy nurse on Friday and she said that they don�t think mum will be mobile anymore. Mum is vomiting on a daily basis now. I don�t know whether it�s all the medication or the C.

I was going every evening to visit mum but now I am trying to have 2 or 3 evenings per week to stay at home as I am tiring myself out and I was not spending enough time with my partner. Do you think this seems ok to do this?


I miss mum soooo much. Even now, and I only saw her last night and I�ll see her again this afternoon.


Thank you for your kind support.
xxx

[tigwig]

Hi muchlovex just wondering how you are