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Thanks burston, I might do that, it just gets so dreadfully hard sometimes.
My family are quite upset at me for having the day off, because it'll probably be a slippery slope down until I just can't pyshically go back. It's a shame, because its a nice job, bit boring. But all the people are really lovely. And sometimes, I think it makes it harder. Because people are always thinking- 'what the hell do you have to whine about?'
And makes me feel even worse and pretty guilty.
I have my partner (who lives with my family) to talk to, but he struggles to cope with my moods. Especially when he has his own problems.
And the other person I talk to is going through a nightmare divorce, and I would feel awful putting all my problems on top, when they need people to talk to.
I try to be more of the caring listener, than the talker.
I'm desperate to get better, since I want to go back to college in september. And if I continue, I'll just leave again.