How's your life been?

[CAJ1]

When you look back on your life (no matter how old you are) are you happy with it and your life now?

I've just realised the last 9 years of my life have been a confusing, sad, very hard and trying time. I feel like I'm at the right end of the tunnel standing in the light which seemed so far away at one time. My life is how I want it to be and I can honestly say I feel happier than I ever have.

[ianfran]

BIG((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((drisgirl))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
always xx

[Spex]

Drisgirl, hope you don't mind me asking - Did he die of natural causes? And how old was he?

Ignore me if it is painful to answer.

[pinktwink]

caji I am so glad for you hope your happiness grows and grows

Wishing all users happiness

Whitebear your life may be tough but that light in the tunnel is llike a star shinning on you showing you the way out. Counselling is never easy but worth it . It takes a couple of months to notice a difference and often things get worse before healing occurs. ?It is hard work but worth it.

And me well life has had its ups and downs but hey its from the downs you experience through growth and learning. am pretty happy now have a good job, good education, excellent partner and we are comfortable. Hoping family next

hugs to all

[Drisgirl]

He was killed instantly on his motorbike -his passion by a lady who didnt look- in a horse lorry -others saw him but she didnt -he was 50.Just like the advert !! C-est la vie.Didnt help that I was out of signal and when I got back to the house -not that many hours later - I had mega messages -the Police and Funeral Directors had been looking for me yet it was left to our son to tell me that his dad had been killed (I only listened to the messages much later) - i'll never ever forget that moment -i wish it had been a stranger who had told me.I,for the first time in their lives wasnt there for them and it was left to my dad to tell them.He would hate me being like this -i go to see him and have a chat -i'm a strong person -it was just too sudden :(
Thanks Ian (()) - im not always like his -but it will never go away -it just lurks there waiting on an oppo for an out pouring -cant talk to family as they are like me so sometimes it does help to come on here xxx

[ianfran]

drisgirl - anytime you wanna have a chat, sweetheart, i and loads of others, will be here for you! - always! xx

[pinktwink]

Dris sorry to hear of you tragic loss. It always hurts to loose those we love. I hope you find comfort in being there for your boys now. I hope they make you proud

[Rosetta]

Dris, it will get better,believe me. As its hard to talk to family, have you had any help from organisations like Cruise or Victim Support.

Sorry, I may be repeating stuff, I haven't read through the whole thread and have not been on the site for that long

[ianfran]

hugs to you too, pinktwink, from all here - i'm sure more looking and not posting! - glad you ok x

[Drisgirl]

Thank you both -im all teary -it comes in spates -one day I will be able to have a day without the tears daring to prick my eyes !!!

Pink -We had a boy and a girl -its bleeding hard -i'm chuckling only cos i know how hard it has been with our daughter -phone call every single day with a spreadsheet of how much of a shortfall for her mortgage she anticipates -cue Mum -well hey thats what Mums are for eh? My son and I are are thankfully solvent -bless she has had this since she was 18 -big ask for a wee girl -even bigger ask for the Mum who renovated her flat -but thats what Mums are for !

TY so much to you all -you have helped me through a very difficult day -I try not to post here when emotional as others dont apreciate how hard its been for me -I know others have had losses and have had the strength and support to deal with it -I havent had any support at all from family- so this is my only outlet and I know that some of the nasties will have a field day -I hope it doesnt come chapping on their doors.

TY all -xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Spex]

Drisgirl, you have my sincere condolences. That's a horrific thing to have to live with.

I hope you gain some comfort from the love of your children.

[Drisgirl]

O Rosetta -sorry missed ya -i'm too late for CRUSE -had my first meet last July with them -nothing since -have called and sadly there isnt enough counsellors and they are trying their hardest to get me in.I have another counsellor tho and she is fab -Barnardos.
My GP agrees that CRUSE is too late for me now as we are trying to move on and it may open raw wounds which-believe it or not -are just beginning to scab over.Can you imagine the state of me if i had to re-open the wounds -doesnt bear thinking off !!

TY Hun xxxx

[pinktwink]

dris I hope the sun shines in your heart tomorrow. As for your daughter don't overdo picking up the tab she has to learn some time. Hope you get time to pamper and treat yourself

[ianfran]

drisgirl - why don't you turn in and have a lovely kip - that'll do you some good, sweetheart! - i'm off to the land of noddy right now, as i can barely keep my eyes open! busy weekend!
i'll be back tommorrow and hope to speak to you then

goodnight, drisgirl xx and goodnight all xx

(O-1= ( snoring!!)

[Drisgirl]

TY Spex -I do -its a hard task as i was only half of the partnership and now im all they have but despite what they say and think of me they love me and I cherish them -we are really tight xxx

I dont feel so teary now so thank you ALL for your understanding and patience -you have all made CB a better place so be proud of yourselves -much love to you all xxx

[Rosetta]

Dris, things do get better

Love Rosy xxx

[Drisgirl]

I'll turn in shortly -feel sleepy -thanks all and pink -im her Mummy -I cant see her stuck -she didnt ask for this so i'll subsidise her until she gets on her feet -I know i'm soaking it all up but hey -again -that what Mums are for !!xxx

[pinktwink]

fair play Dris I hope she realises how lucky she is to have you
night sleep well