nervous

[Connemmara]

My final birthday is here at last on Friday and am having a great party but am a bit nervous - they are my immediate friends but two friends have had pow wow some years ago and I get nervous about that. Anybody have that problem

[MickyMacgraw]

Yes that is the dictionary definition butch but Connemmara obviously meant it as a slang as I fail to see that she meant her two friends were having a gathering of red indians, though it does sound funny.

[jno]

yes, a pow wow in my part of the world implies jaw jaw not war war... is that a local usage, Connemmara?

Anyway, have a good time. Refuse to serve the offenders anything stronger than soda water...

[Connemmara]

JNO - are you the one who was trying to get off the drink - if it is you - did you make it

[Bobbisox]

is it actually on Friday Conn?

[Connemmara]

Yep - but I left you a posting elsewhere - forget now

[Bobbisox]

no worries I did see it ;-)
so are you 65? then

[Connemmara]

believe it or not not 65 - not by a long stretch.

[Bobbisox]

oh I am sorry must have been the Last Party thing, we scorpios are good 'uns though..

[Connemmara]

Yes I am scorpio - they say we have a sting in our tail - but do you know if I do I never mean it. Anyway after the fiasco with the sis - who has everything in this world except her son === do you have a sister what did you buy her before you head off to sunny spain. just nosying. thanks joy

[Connemmara]

Can I finally say that ok I am having a birthday party - but really and truly my social life and ordinary life ended when my nephew died 5 years ago because of my sister not taking it not too well and I took her feelings on. Her and I have no children. Sometimes I want to end up in the foetal position and not come out of it. But I am going to promise myself 2011 I am going to go out more and try and holiday - my very good friends have lost out on me not going out and hiding myself cos I have got so much potential to offer. I enjoyed a drink and social life all my life and I dont know what has happened to me. Sorry to be morbid here

[Count-A-Strong]

Connemmara, I'm sure your Nephew wouldn't want you to spend your life in sadness. Try to start socialising a bit more. It's far too easy to become self obsessed and insular.

[Connemmara]

just feel guilty enjoying myself - that's all - particularly in front of my sis

[Bobbisox]

I have two older sisters Conn, one in NZ who I wont ever see again, she is now in her 80s and suffers serious dimentia, the other sent me a b/day card this morning, infact she sent me two, one with Sister on and very sweet and the other with a fat tattooed chav on, coz she liked that one better, cheely cow!!!
Just go with the flow pet and let the two warring factions slug it out, have a wonderful birthday and just be yourself x

[jno]

no, I still have a little Baileys most evenings, Connemmara. Mmmm. I shall save a little for Butch as he is feeling misunderstood.

You actually sem like a nice outgoing person on AB; but I know things can get anyone down. Don't wait till 2011, though, call a friend tomorrow and say hello.