Thanks so much boxtops. Hugs always welcome! Crete Love, Kevin will always be with me, but yes, the pain never goes away and the tears still flow. He wouldn't have wanted to make anyone sad though, so please smile for him and for me. Alexanderd, so very sorry to hear about you nephew. Dreadfully sad and not something one ever gets over. I was lucky in a way that I had a bit longer with my Kevin. He died three days before his 21st birthday, but his age did bring special problems with it too. He fully understood what was happening to him. Despite all that, I feel he lives on in my heart and we smile and laugh a lot together and I have my ratter15 who is so understanding when I have my sad, lost moments. Hugs to you all xxx