Hi Porschebabe,
Sorry to hear you are lonely. I'm sure you can see by the amount of responses you've had that people feel for you and would like to help. Have you thought about joining some sort of night class? Apart from meeting different people you may find a new interest whether it be languages, art & craft, writing, cookery, computer (never know they may show you how to access the internet without mean hubby ever knowing :-) Learning something new will give you something to think about other than being on your own and give youa sense of achievement that will in turn boost your own self confidence. What about your local gym, taking part in keep-fit classes rather than just working out on your own. Anyway Porschebabe Goodluck and hope you find some friends soon. Have a good weekend!