Sorry to hear about your sadness Naomi and headwreck, and Gness, it's really hard to watch someone nearing the end of their lives, whether you got on well or not they are still parents. I know how it feels my sister and I were born during the war, my brother and youngest sister were born 8 and 12 years respectively later. When live was easier. All her attention was taken with my brother and youngest sister, we didn't have a look in. I felt lost when she died, I mourned her and I mourned not having her affection more.