i cannot forget him

[yoona]

sorry for my english.....
I am a 24 yrs old, Chinese. I fell in love with a Muslim guy when I was 17. And our relationship last for 6 years. 2 year ago, I decided to end this relationship because I didn’t want him to waste his time on me. I really like him. He is my first love. I feel comfortable whenever with him. I gave him all of me when I was 18. I knew he loved me too, and I really want to be with him.
But the problem is, I never told my family about him (because I dare not to tell them I have a Muslim boyfriend), but i had and have good time with his family. I know my parents will not allow us to be together. But my feeling with him becomes stronger. He got a new girlfriend right after we broke up. I felt so sad at that time. We didn’t contact for a month. But he found me back and we met up again. Though we broke up, but we are still doing the same thing as we were together. My friends said he was just taking everything for granted. But I know he still loves me. I know he still loves me though he is going to marry other girl next month. I know I’m being stupid. But I can’t control my feeling. I told him I will do anything for him until the day he marry other. He replied; don’t think too much, as long as both of us are happy.
It is all my fault because I know I’m not strong enough to hold this relationship. But when we hug, kiss and sleep together, I can imagine he do the same thing with that girl. I am torturing myself every time with him. But my feeling on him resurfaces every time I decided to forget him.
Please..Help me…

[puddle-duck]

It's time for you to move on & find someone who is free to be with you.
You say he's getting married soon and yet he is still sleeping with you. Do you really want to be with someone who is capable of that type of behaviour?

[jackthehat]

It seems that he is also bowing to pressure......from his family to marry a good muslim girl.
He may really want to be with you, but he will do as is expected of him.

Don't settle for second best.