i had some interesting conversations with the local vicar after my o/h died, i went to church not so much to pray, but to find some quiet, the attendance is low from what i understand, and he happened to be in attendance. We talked for quite a long while, more counselling that churchly guidance. He knows that i am an atheist, and did not press me further about attending once i made my feeling known. Quite why i went there i still can't answer, but i do know that the rage i felt didn't stop at the church door.