Self Harming

[Baby_Sham]

Really didn't want to post this, but here goes...

I've started self harming, and can't stop :-/

I don't even know what my question is, just that I need some help.

Life has been a bit difficult the past year or so, but I thought things were ok.
It's only been the past week that I've started doing it, and I don't even know why. I only know it makes me feel good, almost like a 'release'.
I'm a happy person, I've started to deal with life's difficulties, but I've found this new 'thing' and I'm a little bit addicted to the way it wakes me feel.

I'm having to wear long sleeved tops because I've wonderfully fluffed up my arms, and my whole chest and stomach are cut to pieces. Why? I don't even know.

I need some help, but don't know where to turn?

Really embarrassed by this thread, so please don't start preaching to me. I know it's wrong, but I don't even know why I'm doing it :-(

[Baby_Sham]

Tony, mamya, yes I understand that, but he's not even oven to debate.
I don't know what to say :-(

Yes I have an email address, but I can only mail you if you post your email address on here.

[dizmouk2009]

I did. it's [email protected]

[pixie373]

I think you two posted at the same time. Babysham, diz has put his email address a few posts up. He will understand.

[dizmouk2009]

pixie :) x

[dizmouk2009]

Anything you say to me via email I will keep confidential. I don't want you thinking I'm going to start blerting your personal life out. I might be able to help and even if I can't I'm sure you will appreciate the comfort of speaking to someone else who has been and is also going through something similar. There is no preasure :)

[Baby_Sham]

He posted a link to hotmail, not his email address.

Diz, are you still there? If so, I will post my email. x

[pixie373]

:-) x

[dizmouk2009]

Yeah I'm still here. [email protected]

[Baby_Sham]

I've mailed you :-)

[Eve]

As regards you husband, people who haven't been there will find it very very difficult to understand it and it would have been a big shock for him.

Regardless of anyone else around you, you need help.

One thing that will need to be looked into is whether any side effects of medication could be having any kind of an effect on your state of mind. I've had it happen and it was extremely unpleasant.

If that has been excluded you need someone who can help you with your immediate state of mind and help you make a plan for ongoing care and review, e.g. medication supported by some kind(s) of therapy.

Therapy may help you understand why you do it (eg feeling out of control) and what triggers it and help you to maybe find other ways of dealing with those emotions and triggers.

If you cannot fight off the urge, at least at first, then try and have some things in to at least help prevent against infections such as wound wash and making sure anything you use is completely clean.

Don't be embarrassed. It's a lot more common that you probably think and there is help out there. It will need you to be strong too though but you need some help getting on a level playing field to be able to establish coping techniques and ways to make you feel better in a way that doesn't hurt you. I know it seems like it is helping more than hurting at the moment but it can escalate and make It harder to accept help further down the line.

I hope you get the help you need x

[mccfluff]

or bio oil, that works too

big hugs xx