Hmmm, i think you are very misguided by my comments. I would stay true to one person and always have done. Also i am very cautious of who i sleep with. I dont think i need to read up on depression as its a mental issue. You obviously are very down at the moment and i totally undserstand you wanting to vent your anger out on me. But the real issue is your relationship. you can try as hard as you like to try to mend it, but unfortunately all what you are trying now should have been tried as soon as you suspected there was a problem. Obviously you must be evry controlling and cant let go, or are very emotionally unstable. But i strongly suggest that in order for you to sort out your'depression' , you need to discuss what is causing it. You can only blame so many people but if you look deep down at your life over the last few years i am sure you will see what the root cause was...