Glad to hear you're doing ok. I still think of old pets I've had, inlcuding one who as far as I know is not dead but who I had to leave behind after a relationship ended. I know I don't come across as a great animal lover a lot of the time but any living thing that has brought joy in your life, even if not for very long, will always be missed somewhere and it is perfectly natural to grieve for that. Chin up :c) (And don't feel guilty about wanting another one, it's a good thing!)