I think its been 6 weeks now with no alcohol but the black dog is now upon me again. Triggered by buying a new bike and having to take it back 2 times now and it still isn't fixed. It starts other thoughts that just pile up and make me think life is worthless and there is no point of living...
Well done on your 6 dry weeks UKanon, you can do it I know you can.
Keep taking here and keep posting. The more you talk or think about other things the better the chance of drowning out the black dog. Its maddening about the bike but once it is fixed it will be a huge release to go riding it in the spring air.
well mine has been 4 years since I started work and lost my freedom. I went to the doctors before and they went through lots of questions and then they said we can offer you a counselling session in 8 months. I couldn't commit to that as I travel a lot.
Also I saw councillors at university and they ended up not understanding the problem and told me I didn't have one.
I guess the mind is such a complicated thing they cant help everyone.
You know your own mind better than anyone Uk(etc).
Tried to top myself a couple of times when I was young.
Damm glad I was a failure coz life is good!!!!
I haven't touched alcohol for 7 years now and I put my sobriety solely down to Them. They make me feel, normal and therefore alcohol has no part in my life anymore.
Go to your doctor and ask him about being prescribed them.
UKan - you get thro it yourself, ( difficult)
with help from people who can support you
or with help from the health services ( nursing support or doctor )
and good luck ( 20% need some support during their lifetime so it is not THAT uncommon )
I've read the links, PP, I'd never heard it before.
I have very limited understanding of depression. My dad had a breakdown but I was too young to know what was going on. My aunt suffered but she kept quiet about it until it was too late.
I think talking is a therapy. It's so individual. I wonder if getting the bike fixed will make UK feel better...
This is an excellent way of describing it.
I am already taking nicotinomide, Vitamin B6 and diazempam to sleep. Are they not anti depressants? The doctor put me on something else too but they made me want to peel my own skin off somehow and become paranoid.. Not sure what they were but didnt take them again.
There are tons of anti-depressants. If you are struggling then go back to your doctor. If you are truthful and honest to the doc they will have a better idea of how to help you.
You have done well to stay off the booze (as has Chrissa). Try and do some voluntary work - it can actually be fun. I 'work' in an Oxfam Bookshop and it is a laugh and enjoyable at the same time. I start in 18 minutes -
timekeeping has never been a strong point of mine.