Can i moan?

[tinkerbell23]

Please can i?

Im going to anyhow :0/

Have you ever been in a situ where not one of your friends are in the same boat as you?

Everyone has kids now (eek!!) or a partner. Not me!

Hoping when i begin work ill meet like minded folk- my best friend has no kids, but is moving a few miles away with her bf...soo happy for her, but ill miss her.

Everytime i go for lunch or even up for a glass of wine to a mates theres usuay a kid or 5... In the nicest possible way, i dont always want to be around kids so i do avoid it sometimes??

My facebook is plastered with photos of all the kids (very cute) and im now getting the speeches about how one day ill have all this and "be complete" grrrr

Thing is i dont know if i even want any because im scared i wouldnt be a good mum, or make my kids feel like my mum makes me feel (not good!) or worse !!

Mentioned this just as a chat to the parents- mum replies tht i have to get myself a bf, as i dont seem capable of that.

Wish she would credit me with the fact i devoted the past 3y to uni, ive done EVERYTHING possible to get a job- start september.....

Gave up my flat to move home due to uni despite the volatile relationship we have. ALOT has came up in my counselling regarding this.

Im afraid im not like her pals kids who are all marrying off. Sometimes it feels like i cant be me. Sorrry for the moan. I went and told all to my gran- we are as thick as theives!!! Love her- shes more like my mum!!! Had been confiding in an aunt, but its been gettin back to mother :0(

At least i had my car to go and stay elsewhere for last night xxx

Sorry again for moaning- its all i do on here! Somewhere to turn xx

[nungate]

Zovirax/Acyclovir now!

[tinkerbell23]

Ill stick a little dosh away next two or three wks MR probs £50 each me
& a mate!!!!

Uuh cant wait- if the weathers nice it will be amaziiiing xx

[tinkerbell23]

Aww i know im stocked up!! Compeed patch in situ xxx

[MarkRae]

OK, tinks, but see email...

[tamborine]

I'll sort petrol & bed, u just drive.

[tinkerbell23]

Okay x

[tinkerbell23]

Aww bless u tambo ill bring my sewing you can teach me xxxx

[tamborine]

bring ur cozzy, head for Heathrow. Are u coming 2nite?

[ummmm]

Are you serious Tambo?

[tamborine]

y not umm?

[ummmm]

It's 1.45am and you think she's going to travel from Scotland on fairydust?

It's also a little creepy.

[tamborine]

creepy? Tinx is a nightbird, like me. The drive is about 5hrs & tinx knows how to find me

[ummmm]

- Fill up the tank & forget ur purse, leave ur ID to pay later. U need a break & u can get me on fb

- I'll sort petrol & bed, u just drive.

- bring ur cozzy, head for Heathrow. Are u coming 2nite?

^^^yes, that sounds creepy.

[tamborine]

fgs... Its up to tinx.

[tinkerbell23]

You are kind tambo thank you!! Id probs fall asleep at the wheel after my dose of night nurse!!!

Hoping to drop off!! The petrol lights on- haha id get chased for legging off without payin lol!!

Thanks for all the kind words an concern to all of you it means alot honestly! My ab pals rock xxx

[tinkerbell23]

Ps well jel of you english and your bloody good weather ;0>

[tamborine]

The offers there & the pool is fab as is the weather.

[tinkerbell23]

Thank you tamm- you are a star!!! {*}. Xxx

[anneasquith]

tink. if " things " are so intollerable at home. present yourself at the housing department and declare yourself homeless.

[tinkerbell23]

Hey anne- thing is i dont have a penny!! I cant do that i just wouldnt be able to live!!

Hence the horrible feelings that i say how much i dislike her and things but i stay here and accept money. Horrible xx