Seizure?

[dannyday5821]

i have been abusing pain killers and recently been taking dihydrocodine instead of cocodamol because the effects last longer. i fell to the floor and although i was conscious i was skirming about on the floor and frothing and spitting. it went on for 5 mins and it was wierd, i wasnt in pain but mentally i felt like i was and kept wriggling about - was this a partial seizure? or am i just so head wonderfully fluffed from depression that it was just an 'episode?'

im a bit concerned because i had a fit when i abused tramadol about 4 years ago, is it worth going to hosp or the doctors?

[daffy654]

If you are abusing any painkiller you need to get help from your doctor. I'm not sure it was a seizure you had but it could have been and you need to stop taking the dhc's until you are sure.

[MadMen]

If you were on the floor for 5 minutes "frothing and spitting" uncontrollably, I would get yourself to a doctor sharpish.

Have you spoken to anyone about your addiction?

[MadMen]

Danny, where have you gone??

[dannyday5821]

? what do you mean where have i gone ?

anyway yeah i told dr ages ago about addiction, they told me its a bsd idea liver kidney damage and so on, gave me citralopam. but i told them i needed something to knock me out. essentially i want to be as good as a zombie! citralopam works, but in all the wrong ways. it makes me feel motivated... but motivated to do what?!

painkillers put me down. i can zone out doing nothing, feeling like im being cuddled whilst the chemicals pumping through my veins whisper... "everythings going to okay..."

[sara3]

have you had counselling? I assume there is something you're not really dealing with?

[AlwaysConfused]

pop into your docs asap danny

[dannyday5821]

lol counilling?! hehe that was a joke! dr gave me a number to a local service thing, so i rang them, and spoke to some arsey guy who sounded like he really couldnt be bothered, then some woman rang back 'confirmed' details and that was it. not a letter, not another call.

although in fairness I hate being awake during the day time, too much light too many people, so my unsociable hours alive dont really help! i went outside to the shop for like the first time in 5 days and wow, am i pale as hell! plus i kept my phone switched off because i dont want people to contact me, so its primarily my own fault - oh, just like everything else thats wrong with me ;) hehe i am such a special little boy!

[dannyday5821]

anyway i fail at any form of socialising like i am doing now, do you really think its worth me trecking the horrible day light journey to the doctors? i mean, is it worth bothering with? maybe ill wait until it happens again, if it does

[DJHawkes]

special for now, not so special when you're in a coma in hospital or lying in a frideg in the hospital morgue, then you'll just be dead. You need serious help seriously soon and you need to take it seriously. The people you need to help you when you finally get into the right support programme will not judge you or blame you for your problem they will help you make some important decisions and help you plan your way out of this place you've gone down into.

[AlwaysConfused]

danny, it will happen again if you don't get your ass to the docs, that's if you are lucky enough to be alive to tell the tale. Doctors, now!

[dannyday5821]

you really think its that bad? really? i felt wierd when it happened, i feel fine now, although thats probably cuz the pills have kicked in now, so apart from my stomach hurting for the obvious reason, i feel fine. i really domt know if i want the attention, i mean, i cant honestly see me dying from
this, not yet anyway.

then again... part of me wants to die, so... i should do a 'ricardo lopez' and document my downfall! minus the bjork obsession and racism of course, and the whole blowing my brains out thing, don't really fancy that!

[dannyday5821]

what if i rang that 111 number instead? would that be worth it? then maybe i could ask someone without having to leave?

[DJHawkes]

no that would just be attention seeking because you probably want someone else to listen to your woes, get to your own GP but make an appointment for end of surgery as you have alot to discuss.

[dannyday5821]

yeah your right, who could really be arsed to listen to my 'woes' - after all, gp or not, its just a job, and who the hell wants to really listen to me banging in some pathetic selfish self centered manner, nah you're right, my woes aint worth inflicting on somebody else

[AlwaysConfused]

I've known someone to have a seizure which has starved the brain of oxygen. He is alive and kicking, but only just. He's now a vegetable. That would not be a fun way to live your life, Danny. He now lives in a home, being spoonfed. Doesn't get to see his daughter, as the situation upsets her too much. Go see a doctor and then save some pennies and have a nice holiday in the sun. You'll realise what you've been missing x It's amazing what a holiday can do!

[daffy654]

Dot, that comment was uncalled for and verging on the nasty.

[DJHawkes]

you value your opinion and I value mine, this person doesn;t need any mild mannered advice he needs a shock and he needs it now, if it is a genuine situation

[AlwaysConfused]

Ah, 111 is the new NHS direct number. Yes, call that.

[daffy654]

Telling someone with mental health issues to stop attention seeking is a stupid idea.