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Is It All A Bit Futile
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its been just over a year since I went through what might be described as a bit of existential angst. Ending up in a psychiatric hospital after a year of hell with the justice and mental health system. (see previous posts).
However now, a year later, I find myself back where I started with the same old problems, exactly the same scenarios playing out, the same sh#t, different day stuff happening that put me in a psych ward (police cells, courts, accident unit etc) to start with. Once all my court/police/mental health stuff was done with I thought things might be different. I was wrong.
To those who arnt familiar with previous posts please ignore this....I dont need know alls commentating at this moment. To others who have been a massive help in the past, I appreciate ur comments.
Im just finding life a bit futile at the moment and really dont know if I want to carry on. I struggled this past year trying to live a life but inside im dying.
However now, a year later, I find myself back where I started with the same old problems, exactly the same scenarios playing out, the same sh#t, different day stuff happening that put me in a psych ward (police cells, courts, accident unit etc) to start with. Once all my court/police/mental health stuff was done with I thought things might be different. I was wrong.
To those who arnt familiar with previous posts please ignore this....I dont need know alls commentating at this moment. To others who have been a massive help in the past, I appreciate ur comments.
Im just finding life a bit futile at the moment and really dont know if I want to carry on. I struggled this past year trying to live a life but inside im dying.
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I don't know what you're problems are, but I would urge you to keep going. Are you having help with your mental problems? If not, please ask for some. Do you have a job? Perhaps you could look for a part time job or do some voluntary work. Anything to keep you occupied.
I see in a previous post your mum was ill. She must need you. Please do whatever you can to keep going. One day things will seem ok again.
I see in a previous post your mum was ill. She must need you. Please do whatever you can to keep going. One day things will seem ok again.
Have you now been left to cope with this alone? Has any support system you had disappeared? If so try to get back in contact with them, this feeling of futility needs addressing - it may just be too soon for you to handle single handedly especially if there are family issues too.
I hope one day very soon you find that yes, there is a point in going on.
I hope one day very soon you find that yes, there is a point in going on.
I remember you Nailit and your problems. Welcome back. I was Sharingan before, I had a little break from here.
Sorry to hear you're feeling overwhelmed and are questioning life but it is worth going on, this feeling won't be forever and although I'm sure you feel at the moment it's an uphill struggle it's understandable that you feel this way at the moment. It's early days yet to be managing everything yourself, so listen to Mamya and try to get some solid support in place to take the strain to give you a chance to choose different directions since the current ones aren't making you happy. I have a family member who suffers horribly with depression and he has coping strategies for when he feels like this and knows he needs to let people in and let them shoulder things sometimes for a while. Please try to do the same. Things are worth living for, just set your sights on the horizon and step by step try to move forward.
Sorry to hear you're feeling overwhelmed and are questioning life but it is worth going on, this feeling won't be forever and although I'm sure you feel at the moment it's an uphill struggle it's understandable that you feel this way at the moment. It's early days yet to be managing everything yourself, so listen to Mamya and try to get some solid support in place to take the strain to give you a chance to choose different directions since the current ones aren't making you happy. I have a family member who suffers horribly with depression and he has coping strategies for when he feels like this and knows he needs to let people in and let them shoulder things sometimes for a while. Please try to do the same. Things are worth living for, just set your sights on the horizon and step by step try to move forward.
Cloverjo, work is a major issue at the mo. Trying to get some voluntary work but same excuse "Sorry, but youve got criminal convictions"
Same for part time work or full time work.
Mamya, yes, ive now been left to it apart from my probation officer who ive got for another 3 month now, but she seems at a bit of a loss. My last meeting was supposes to be with her and a mental health nurse but the nurse never showed up....not surprising given my previous experiances of the mental health team when ive needed them.
Same for part time work or full time work.
Mamya, yes, ive now been left to it apart from my probation officer who ive got for another 3 month now, but she seems at a bit of a loss. My last meeting was supposes to be with her and a mental health nurse but the nurse never showed up....not surprising given my previous experiances of the mental health team when ive needed them.
Just to say, keep on hanging in there, nailit. Things will get better for you.
You are getting good advice to go and see the GP as perhaps a change in medication, either a higher dose or a different antidepressant, would help.
If you get really down, remember the Samaritans are always there to listen.
And , of course, answerbankers will always respond.
Meanwhile, try to do things that used to make you feel good/better...even if you don't feel like it.
Chin up. :-))
You are getting good advice to go and see the GP as perhaps a change in medication, either a higher dose or a different antidepressant, would help.
If you get really down, remember the Samaritans are always there to listen.
And , of course, answerbankers will always respond.
Meanwhile, try to do things that used to make you feel good/better...even if you don't feel like it.
Chin up. :-))
nailit - I don't know the solution to your problem. But I can fully understand and empathise with you. I haven't worked fulltime for ten years due to bipolar disorder. I am lucky in that I have been working in a charity shop for the last eight years - one or two afternoons per week.
Yet sometimes I think that it would be really nice to go to bed and never wake up again. It is a bit like swimming in quicksand - and I can't swim.
Take care and keep plodding on.
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Yet sometimes I think that it would be really nice to go to bed and never wake up again. It is a bit like swimming in quicksand - and I can't swim.
Take care and keep plodding on.
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Hi nalit, sorry to hear you 'down' again .
I am worried that the mental health team still seem to be useless. Your only option seems to be the probation officer, you have to try to get through to him/her that things are getting worse and you desperately need help. I am not saying it will be easy, as you must be aware there have been more cut backs in the NHS this year and unfortunately mental health is one area that has been cut more than most. It is Bi polar disorder you suffer from isn't it? I will do a bit of Googling and see if I can find any charities that may help.
I am worried that the mental health team still seem to be useless. Your only option seems to be the probation officer, you have to try to get through to him/her that things are getting worse and you desperately need help. I am not saying it will be easy, as you must be aware there have been more cut backs in the NHS this year and unfortunately mental health is one area that has been cut more than most. It is Bi polar disorder you suffer from isn't it? I will do a bit of Googling and see if I can find any charities that may help.
Take a look at this lot
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They have support groups , a help line and an 'eforum' (what ever that is)
I haven't had time to read it all but it looks like there is a lot of support out there including being able to talk to fellow sufferers who have 'been there, got the T shirt' as it were.
http://
They have support groups , a help line and an 'eforum' (what ever that is)
I haven't had time to read it all but it looks like there is a lot of support out there including being able to talk to fellow sufferers who have 'been there, got the T shirt' as it were.
