Have you got a secret past?

[fatmanlevi04]

I am 33 female and married use a name that hopefully no one recognises on here, I have been married 3 years but het what a past lived with another woman for 4 years yes I suppose as a lesbian. I put it down to a very sad unhappy first marriage (daft and young at 22), am now a regional manager driving a gorgeous but expensive BMW, have a stepson who is 17 (nearly), but whoah I don't look back in anger but laugh because been there worn the t. shirt and guys only me knows xxxx

[PhilBy]

I used to be a werewolf, but I'm alright nowoooooooooo

[TheTemptress]

why mention the BMW? is it important in the confession?

[fatmanlevi04]

Philby I know you oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh

[ELVIS68]

Yes, I used to be Buddy Holly59

[mccfluff]

oh my god yes but not admitting it on here xx

[fatmanlevi04]

The Temptress, to me yes it is my exhusband would not allow me to work through jealousy, even though I was a good saleswoman, I lived on a rough council estate believing I was so in love, having been raised by a mam and dad who came from nothing but my dad worked and still does very hard so that now they are financially well off. Can you imagine what a disapointment I was to them, and how much it hurt to see me battered and bruised but I still went back, I left finally with only the clothes on my back and my dog when he yet again attacked me. And yet again they took me back and after two years of having nothing but memories of my ex going back to her ex and hitting me in front of her, I am so proud now that I have crawled out of the gutter and moved on, I cant say I will ever forget but for some reason my litle Bmw makes me realise I am not the loser but someone who in time got my life back, okay I have the scars but in my eyes I achieved in realising if I can do it so can anyone, I am not bothered about money as I said my parents worked to get theres and guess what now so have I, do you honestly think that is wrong because if you do take the silver spoon out of your mouth and live the life many of us have to live!!

[fatmanlevi04]

Mcfluff, thankyou for your answer I have only been a member on here for a little while and no matter what I say you have never patronised me cheers x

[ELVIS68]

You shouldn`t judge your life by the car you drive

[fatmanlevi04]

And if you read my last message after my first marriage there were two evil b as**** one a male one a female I attracted bad people if that makes me pretensious then who cares"

[fatmanlevi04]

Why dont u guys read the full story before commenting on the car I drive, it beats an ambulance any day.

[TheTemptress]

well now i understand...i totally know what you mean, i work with women who have been battered and abused so congratulations for making a great life for yourself ...go girl!! i wish you all the best..(ps i know what you mean about the car!!! yeeehaaa!!)

[PhilBy]

I know they say that money doesn't make you happy, but if I was unhappy I'd sooner it be with money that without :)

[mccfluff]

good on you babe xx

[fatmanlevi04]

The temptress, thankyou it is so difficult for the ones who have not got a fu*king clue xx Rebecca x

[ELVIS68]

True, but the car`s just a mask..surely

[Dizzieblonde]

I was a bit too keen on the sex, drugs and rock and roll when I was much younger, but - like a beautiful butterfly - I emerged into a kind and compassionate adult! LOL

[mccfluff]

aww sweetie thanks for that, i think your very brave saying all that

[mccfluff]

and dizzie think i can second that! but i would love a BMW

[fatmanlevi04]

The temptress, thankyou, that means so much, it hurts to read comments that make me seem materialistic, but then how can I pretend that everyone has been there. Yes the beema is a status symbol but god to me its like F*** u, i got away look what I have done, my dad said I would not live until I hit 30, and I still bloody went back, I'm nearly 34 and I am here. I will never forgive myself for the sleepless nights I put them through but surely them seeing me make something of myself can put there minds to rest a little and by the way it doesnt i have an awesome dad who I can pour my heart out to, but yep you are all completely right I believe by seeing their daughter doing well it will wipe away the past memories for them it never will, all I can say is I do have to believe that as I would say to any young woman putting up with violence, no one has the right to comment unless they have been there, my staff have no idea I think?? they think I am so confident and always have been I am not I am just one of the lucky ones, take care Rebecca xx