Hi Pinkfizz.. Was really sad reading your post, i really do feel for you. Don't ever feel alone, look how much support you have from your friends on AB, i think that is really really sweet! Bless them all. I am sure things will get better, i went through a horrible time last year and have really managed to turn my life around and now i am well, and enjoying living. Make the most of everything and take nothing for granted. Loving the name by they way! Do we share a love of all things pink..??xxhehehe