Hello conkl, all I can say is just be yourself and whoever you want to be. As long as you are not hurting anyone, then just be YOU. If people don't like it, then that's their problem. You will find your style (not in a fashion sense) changes many times as you get older, because your personality and whole being will adapt to things you experience along the way. You have to learn to love yourself which isn't always easy though - I am 39 and have never managed it so far! You sound like someone trying to please too many people, when you should be thinking about who you really are. Sorry to have gone on a bit and good luck.