did a really stupid thing last night

[Petal~flower]

I texted my ex partner (you know, the one who dumped me via email)

I was sober too!!!

Been punishing myself all day for it.

Snap me out of it please

[tiggerblue10]

Awww Petal. Why'd u do it hun? xxx

[Petal~flower]

tigger, I am an idiot thats why.

Its his birthday tomorrow, so I sent a "hope you are celebrating it in style" text

need my head seeing to lol

[~max~]

We've all done it hun, don't worry! You're gonna feel like a plank for a while, but you'll get over it. xxx

[Panic Button]

Delete his number from your phone, then you can't do it again, even if drunk

[Petal~flower]

thanks max......well he did reply........so I didnt look a complete numpty lol

[Petal~flower]

Panic, I know his number from memory..... yet cant remember my own!!! grrrrrrrrrrr

[~max~]

It's always like that hey! lol you'll be fine, just don't reply to HIS reply.

[lindapinda]

Hi Petal ;-).You did it and you can't change that. But,you can decide NOT to do it again,and be strong. It's holiday time again and people get lonely,but,you you know he treated you badly and you are worth more;-)

[Petal~flower]

max, he wont text me first...........believe me...........(arogant arse hole)

hi linda. I had done really well, and had no contact with him since I replied to his happy christmas text.

But it was a good thing, last night in a way, as it made me realise what an egotistical arse hole he really is

Was just disappointed in myself lol

[lindapinda]

Oh well,since he's an egotistical a*se hole lol...the temptation to maintain contact,should very quickly disipate..job done !! You watchin Road Kill on BBC1 btw?

[Petal~flower]

I just flicked it on ...........then flicked it off

linda I am alone tonight in the house remember lol

[tiggerblue10]

I did something similar many years ago. I used to call my ex once a week. He never said don't call me so I just carried on calling him. We all do things like this because we are human after all.

[Petal~flower]

tigger, I think its because us women have feelings!!!

btw, the ex said he had seen me at work last week, and that I looked good.........wow

he also said he say me through a window.........pretty bloody hard as I work on top floor lol

[tiggerblue10]

Did he say that in reply to your text?

[Petal~flower]

yes tigger, he works in Croydon, so dont know what he was doing in my shop on Thurs.

He is staying down the road this weekend with his brother. 5 mins away.

I said if you fancy a birthday drink, let me know. (god how stupid am I) But I guess I wanted to see him face to face, and ask him why he felt it right to dump me via email.

[tiggerblue10]

What did he say about the birthday drink?

[Petal~flower]

he said, can I text you tomorrow (today) and let you know.

I got a text this morning, saying he had a family meeting, so he could not make it. But it would of been good.

Obviously not that good huh

[tiggerblue10]

Ohhh Pet hun, I wish I could say he will come round but I really don't think he will. Easier said than done but you have to forget about him.

Did you try the internet dating thingy?

[Petal~flower]

tigger, I dont ever want to get back with him...........

Last year, I was a total f*cked up mess about the whole thing. I guess I wanted to see his fat face, and see him squirm when I asked him, why did he finish our 4 year relationship via email.

In his texts, he kept on about, how I was always in his heart, etc blah blah blah................yeah right

Internet dating! still pondering on that one

[tiggerblue10]

I think its called "Closure".

An ex of mine didn't even let me know he dumped me. I called him one night and he said he was busy and would call back. I waited several days and the call never came and I had that horrible sick feeling in my stomach. I couldn't eat for days. My friends took me to Bognor to get over him and it worked. the hurt turned into anger and I wanted toget revenge but he lived the other side of London so I couldn't confront him. Some men are so calous!