society manipulates us into acting in a certain way, and there are expectations upon us to spend our money in a certain way - to such an extent i think we would not be able to survive if we didnt continue to perpetrate the lie.
but, i think you are ready to be brave and can see that if possible you are now ready to make changes..................
drastic perhaps, but possible none the less......................
if you can, really look at every single penny you spend and open yourself up to "doing without " - you might be quite shocked by what you really do spend your money on !! i did !!!
good luck !!