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of course i told him "dont tell anyone" but i knew he was going to tell her. And he did.
After that day when i looked at my facebook i saw that she liked all my photos and posts. It was funny and strange but that was it. But i still coudnt know what to do next. We were living far away from each other (5 or 6 hours away)
I knew that, where she live, people dont even know what homosexuality is and dont respect it either, they think it is a huge sin.
One day ,that friends son texted me, ask me how am i and what am i doing right now. Normally we dont speak often, then he said, "i am with ....(her name) right now. She asked me about you and she asked me to say hi to you."
we were liking each others sharings on the internet since then. She was liking my 'homosexuality' posts too.
After one month, she called me. It was the first time she calls and it was 8 or 9 pm. Her daughter lives in the same city as me, she asked me about the city and told me that she is going to come to see her daughter. We talked normal and when she was going to hang up the phone, she said "but the way, i was thinking to ask you this for a long time, .....(her friends son) told me something about you" my heart was beating so fast that i coudnt even know how to reply so she added "anyway, i assumed it was a joke, right?" Her tone was so cold and not like her. Not like her personality. I still feel it, my hands were shaking and my head was like fire. I said, "What did he say" but she didnt reply that, she said, "Even if it wasnt a joke, i woudnt trust you"
I dont know if i translated right but that was it.
I am really sure that she wants to talk to me and wonders me but i dont trust her too. If our families didnt knew each other, ı could think something to do but i feel very stuck. I knew she is trying to reach me but at the same time, she might be thinking i am kidding with her. She might be thinking that i realized she is a lesbian and i am playing with her. Because there is an age diffierence and because of my personality.