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[katy77]

myself I my partner are strugling to get along at the moment. We had a new baby 4 months ago, and at the same time my partner changed his job. He has a very stressful job and the business is 24 hours so requires him to spend alot of time there. Initially he said the first couple of months would be tough and we would have to put our relationship time on hold~ this I agreed to and whilst coping with a new baby alone, doing all the night feeds and keeping the home perfect just as he likes it , I spend an awful long time alone. he works 6/7 days a week from 10 - 14 hours a day and in the 4 months nothing has got any better. He is incredibly stressed and I feel he takes it out on me. He has no time during the day to call me or email just to make me feel wanted and I feel like a nuisance. We argue alot when he gets home I always make a meal for him no matter what time he his home and makesure the baby is in bed so he can relax. Thing is it makes no difference ...When we first got together he was my boss we worked twice together since. Initially he told me he was single and we started a relationhip..thing was he was not single and infact living wit someone and leading a double life. After two years he sold the house and said he wanted to be with me but in the first couple of months carried on seeing his ex behind my back. After a few months of been together I fell pregnant he didnt want the baby and it was not planned. I went for abortion but couldnt go through with it. I then booked 2 abortions after and could not do it. I said I was prepared to have the baby woth or without him and he chose to stay with me. He loves his child to bits but because of how we got together and the time I spend alone I am paranoid he is going to hurt me and do the same to me. When we previously worked together we had to lie about been together and this was during my pregnancy, I worked right up until my due date because of the pressure he put there -see what next cont...