Anxiety....why....

[tinkerbell23]

Here goes........

I have posted many a time about anxiety/ panic attacks

Ive just had a lovely lovely weekend so im annoyed that im a bit "on edge" today.... Had a nap as im feeling really tired (that makes it worse i think) but so many times today, and anytime i have a panic attack.... Its because i think about death....

Im asleep and i jolt out of a sleep at times and into a fullblown panic about dying.

Im not ill, i know im not, and i dont panic about how ill die or when its about being dead.

Its hard to type this cos its making me feel panicy writing it as will the replies cos ill be thinking about it. !!!!!!!!!

Ive no propanolol left which i was given - need to see doc for more as they helped somewhat...i take kalms as night time is my worst time for my mind running riot on me.

Feel really daft! I deal with death as part of my job NO PROB but more and more this is coming into my mind.

Does anyonelse get this? Is it a phobia? I mentioned to doc when i told him about panic attacks but beginning to think speaking to someone is wht i need ie councelling or CBT?? ........ Can feel the heart racing just now and have had to shake the thoughts away a few times today.....

Sorry for the long post. Deep breaths!!! X

[murraymints]

Tinks...you need a holiday !!

[tinkerbell23]

By the way i have had many replies about anxiety an what to do i am so greatfull for..... And am looking into.... So im
Not undermining any the prev advice ive had...

Its more about the "dying"/ "being dead" and whether you think this may be a phobia which in turn is provoking panic. Xx

[tinkerbell23]

Och MM i need a feckin job first and then id b away on a hol asap LOL.

Daft i know. I have a great life and good health x

[237SJ]

I think the answer might be something like CBT or NLP as well. Years ago, I started suffering from stress. They weren`t sure what it was at first and tested for hyperthyroidism. It wasn`t that though. I didn`t have a racing mind or wake in the night. I don`t really know what set it off but I remember it was when the mortgage rates went through the roof and I had a high mortgage. I was given beta-blockers but I have noticed that you say you only take them when you have an attack. I took them all the time (same drug I think just a half dose). They really did help and I was only on them for a matter of weeks. It was like someone had pressed the "reset" button in my body and the attacks were gone when I finished the drugs.

[Prudie]

Tinks I used to get panic attacks in my 20s and never told anyone in case they said I was going mad! Anyway I've since found that masses of people have experienced something similar so first of all you are not alone. My ex used to jolt upright in bed thinking he was going to die too, it was scary for him at the time but I think just his worry about not succeeding in life manifesting itself. The only encouragement I can give is I think you will grow out of them!

[tinkerbell23]

Its so silly sometimes- things on tv make my mind wander! When people die, elderley folk, antiques all set off a train of thought - sometimes it just pops in and out my head and sometimes it freaks me out so much i panic.

Sorry guys x

[DTCwordfan]

some yoga/meditation techniques may do you wonders, tinks, almost a mental "breathe in a brown paper bag" to reset the system a little.

More do suffer from this than one realises, in part a fear of what the future holds - and the stress of your unemployment is evidently not helping you.

[tinkerbell23]

Hope so too and thanks for the encouragement!
Well the propanolol was to be taken as and when... And i called up to ask for another prescription and was declined so im assuming doc wants to see me- and i wil go. I keep a bachs spray aswell.

People who know me would be flabberghasted!! Im outgoing and bubbly and not anxious at all full of get up and go but at night i wind down and my mind goes riot :0/ sometimes i hate the way sleep can just take over and then i think argh thts like dying i wont even know....and when people say that it freaks me!!

Feel dead silly x

[Unsureme]

Sorry to say this but,I think you should pull yourself together, go to a Hospital where people are really suffering,and see what REAL anxiety is.!!

[Mamyalynne]

Tinks, as you have identified an area of yourself that sets off these attacks, I think it is the perfect time to seek out some counselling. The improvement will be most beneficial and help you step out to enjoy the rest of your life without panic.

Big ((HUG)) Mamya♥

[tinkerbell23]

Thanks DT. Im annoyed with myself because i think i have a very fortunate life....and although im unemployed i have my qualification and help from parents unlike some so i dont miss out. I had these when i was working too though.

The panic is one thing and i KNOW what causes it. I cant avoid the subject of death etc...but i think its a phobia?

My doctor told me its normal and he sees loads who are the same including kids. I hope that i make it to an old age, and by that age i will be accepting and have had a good life and be comfortable that "thats life" but this really is taking over my thoughts alot. X

[pastafreak]

Hi tinks (((HUG)))

I don't think it's a phobia...but I do wonder if it's tied in with your job...unexpressed feeling or emotions that you may feel you can't express or that need to be kept under wraps.
I really think you would benefit from some kind of 'talk' therapy-get it all out in the open. If all your Dr can do is prescribe drugs that may be useful but do not deal with or address the cause of your anxiety,then I think you need to seek help elsewhere. Please ask your Dr for a referral to a counsellor....don't continue as you are because these attacks seem to be increasing,and you can't cope on your own .

You are not daft hun....just a sensitive young woman xx

[tinkerbell23]

Urureme i am a nurse thank you. So i see hospitals regularly and you obviously have never felt like this judging by your answer- by god if i could pull myself together and stop these thoughts i would.

[tinkerbell23]

Mamya and pasta thanks....

I am a chatty person and think id benefit from "talk therapy" as you say. Thats why i like here so much! Ive alway been described as emotionally intelligent so you may be right!

As i say im fit and well and have a lovely life. Just these silly thoughts. And i i could learn to ignore or controll or "get it all out" i think i could wave byebye to the panic too cos im really not an anxious person at all!!! X

[pastafreak]

Unsureme has obviously never had panic or anxiety attacks. He/she must be of the 'old school' and 'stiff upper lip' generation.....

[tinkerbell23]

Yeah. Iv dedicated my life to looking after others and thank my lucky stars ever day for 1, my health and 2, the opportunity and the priveledge to do so xx

[DTCwordfan]

I agree with Pasta and Mamya here - its not a phobia, just the way your brain ticks, - nothing per se to be overtly worried about but you do need to work your way through it, be it counselling, yoga, whatever and not be dependent on drugs as the solution.

It is nothing to be embarrassed about, and ignore crass remarks such as above - that person doesn't seem to realise that not addressing issues such as yours can (I emphasise the word can - not will) lead to worse situations, along the lines they refer to.

Keep talking too - if not to family, here.

[boxtops]

unsureme, that is, I'm sorry to say, a typical answer from someone who's never suffered this sort of experiences - lucky old you - it ranks with the "pull yourself together" sort of advice. This is real enough to people who have suffered (prudie, me too) and it can ruin your life if people don't seek help, which enables them to get a handle on it.

Tinks - you have my sympathy, the one thing useful which someone said to me that it's not the fear which panics you, it's "the fear of the fear", the apprehension about something which may never happen... agoraphobia's like that too, nothing will happen to you but you just know it might, and you can't put a name to it.
Ask if your GP will refer you to a hypnotherapist - a proper qualified person who can help you relax, and help you push these negative subconscious thoughts to one side. We all have them - I do - but most of us keep them under wraps if we don't need them.

Seriously - meditation music can help, too. Good luck with it...