Need Help Sorting Something Out, Please Help Me. Mental Help, Spiritual Help, Something Please.?

[Mynameisrobert]

Hello my name is Robert and i m 15 years old. For the last year and a half I haven t known whats going on with me. I have been imagining a lot of things and they are taking over my life. about a year and a half ago I started seeing shadows travel around me and figure showing up everywhere. they are everywhere I go and I don t know how to get rid of them. I always feel like somewhere is watching me all times during the day. I am starting to get really scared and writing this makes me feel more scared. I feel like because of writing this someone is going to hurt me. I feel sane but at the same time I can t tell whats real anymore and its hard to find the real path to follow. these thoughts and feelings have cause a huge impacted in my life. They have made my grades drop, my girlfriend break up with me, and I just feel like i m alone in this equation of my life. Here the scariest and biggest part of this stress I ve been going through. for about 5 months I have been seeing two of me. not just hearing two people in my head seeing a replica of myself. He seems so real and talks like a normal human would. But there is evil in him, everything I do he says is bad and he is always telling me to do bad things like drop out of school, kill myself, kill my family. It s starting to scare me. At this point I can t even tell who is the real me. as I am writing this he is standing next to me staring down at me with a look of anger. I can t tell you how scared I am for my sanity. Plz Help! I just need some advice.

[Old_Geezer]

Go see your GP soonest.

[Retrochic]

Is there an adult you can talk to about this? If not ring these guys

https://www.childline.org.uk/talk/Pages/Talk.aspx

they will not judge or ridicule and will probably steer you towards seeing your GP

You are not 'mental' but may have something going on that will be able to be sorted by your doctor

[murraymints]

classic schizophrenic symptoms..if this is a valid question and you have not just been reading a medical book, GP or psychiatrist is needed now...

[Retrochic]

for goodness sake murraymints the poor lad is 15 - stop frightening him -you can't just walk into a psychiatrists you have to go through your GP

[murraymints]

of course retro..unless as I suspect this is USA where it seems quite normal to go directly to a shrink !

[Mynameisrobert]

I do have Parents and i have briefly told them about it i'm scared to tell them just like I was scared to post this.

[Retrochic]

Hi robert -are you in the UK or USA -if in the USA how about mentioning these things to your school counselor?

[trt]

Have you mentioned this to your parents, if not, why not?

[Hypognosis]

@minty

I'm hope they break the news of the diagnosis to the patient a whole lo more gently than that and give them immediate support and someone to watch over them in case they react negatively.

Highly responsible answer from Old_Geezer said all that needed to be said.

[trt]

What did your parents say?

[Retrochic]

robert -just to add I have a son nearly your age and I would be very upset if he was having these feelings and not telling me. However, some parents are difficult to talk to and maybe this is something you will have to try and share with an appropriate adult -counselor or your family doctor.

[Hypognosis]

@Mynameisrobert

If you've been consuming any "recreational chemicals", please stop doing so now but retain the packaging and pass it to your doctor, for laboratory testing. You might help save another kid who is even more panicked by symptoms than yourself.

[Mynameisrobert]

I can't talk to a school counselor I take virtual school because when my parents talked to me about why my grades dropped I said I been feeling depressed that is all I told them. I then said I think its better if I do online school because I think it will limit the stress. I really just wanted time alone to make plans to kill myself. These plans have stopped and gone multiple times.

[Mynameisrobert]

@Hypognosis I have not taken a single pill in my life. I am also drug free and no alcohol use.

[Mynameisrobert]

@Retrochic I live in the USA

[Mamyalynne]

Please do as suggested, see your family Doctor - they will refer you on if need be.

Don't try to cope alone.

[Mynameisrobert]

@Mamyalynne One part of me doesn't want to and the other me is telling me not to. I don't want to because I am afraid I will be put in a mental institute and i'll miss my family. I also feel like someone will hurt me for doing so.

[Retrochic]

Hi Robert -I think you should ask your mom to take you to see your family practitioner as soon as possible.

[Mamyalynne]

You must face the fear and get help,you wouldn't have asked for guidance if you did not want a resolution.

Difficult I know.

[Mynameisrobert]

@Retrochic If I ask you go to the family practitioner do you think she will wonder why. @Mamyalynne I am scared.