Everything's So Bad At The Moment

[dunnitall]

Hate having to admit to saying how bad I'm feeling ATM and even not to coping.... My OH is in hospital over twenty miles away and I'm now housebound so cannot get to see him, thank goodness for family who are helping out in every direction they can. This is the second week and it's going to be couple of months before he will be home.

It was a rush admission, he has had his leg amputated from below the knee, we never expected that as it was just going to be the toe! I am feeling so low and because I have ulcerated legs I am having daily community nurses to dress wounds, I can do hardly anything myself as my legs are so painful.

Only saviour is FaceTime where we can talk occasionally. I am alone a couple of days a week except for nurses popping in and a carer coming to heat me a dinner. My life is never going to be any better because of the condition I have, so whilst I'm not suicidal (too much of a wuss to do anything such thing) I just wish my life would end.

I feel so guilty I'm thinking of myself when at OH's age everything is so difficult for him and he must be going through hell? I miss him so much and everything is in slow motion and I really can't see ahead.

[scorpiojo]

Did you try this website?

https://www.cisfauk.com

[Tilly2]

I am so sorry to read this, Dunnitall. You are at a very low ebb and everything seems to be piling up on you. Can any of your family come and stay with you for a few days just so that you can talk to someone and hopefully feel more at ease with your situation?

I can't suggest anything else but do hope that you can get through this and see a way ahead.

[dunnitall]

Thanks Scorpiojo but I can't get on to it I don't know why....

[ummmm]

Sounds soul destroying.

[Jordyboy9]

Dunnitall,I can’t say anything that will ease your pain,
But come on here and there are some lovely people who will talk with you,don’t wish for your life to end,OH is going through enough,how would he be without you?

[Old_Geezer]

So sorry to hear what you are going through, but keep reminding yourself he will be back so things will get better. Life always has ups and downs.

[dunnitall]

Thanks Tilly, unfortunately they can't for different reasons they are looking for respite for me but several problems with that as well hopefully they will come up with something soon.

[maggiebee]

I know many will poo poo my suggestion, but would you consider giving Samaritans a ring? Calls are free and it's good to talk and get things off your chest. Free number 116 123 - open 24/7 and you can share as much or as little as you want. Hope things improve for you soon dunnitall, sounds as if you are going through the roughest of times at the moment.

[scorpiojo]

Sorry, you have to join through facebook..


https://m.facebook.com/groups/810071422454039/

[Mamyalynne]

You must feel surrounded by brick walls, no wonder you are so low - I have to say thank goodness for your supportive family and the other care you are getting.

He will get home and once you have all the necessary help in place to cope, you will be a couple once more.
I won't say try to be cheerful, how could yu be - but long to the next stage of your life together.

You'll get the strength from somewhere and make the best of things as I'm sure you always have.

♥

[andres]

dunnitall----Just been onto the site that scorpiojo recommended and it came up with this email [email protected].
It looks like it's just the site to help you . Why not give them a try?

[dunnitall]

Maggiebee thanks for that but unfortunately I can't be heard on the phone as I have problems with my voice I can only whisper....if only I could speak I might be able to scream lol x

[Theland]

Bless you both.
There will be light st the end of this dark tunnel.
I am feeling for you as best I can. X

[gness]

Dunnitall......I am so very sorry to read what you are both going through......I wish there was something I could do to help you.
Like Andres I had a look at the link Scorpio gave. Got in the second try and it looks excellent. As Andres has said there is an email contact address.
I know it’s hard to ask strangers for help but I really think you need a shoulder just now and these folk seem to be the answer. Do consider it.....apart from receiving help those with problems seem to help each other which I know you’d be good at.

Much love..... Gx

[dunnitall]

Thanks everyone for your kind support and suggestions it's very much appreciated. I will email that site and see what they come up with, thank you.

[Bobbisox1]

So sorry to read this dunnitall, I can't offer any solution unfortunately but keep looking in on here if you can't sleep, I know there are people who come on through the night , if I've had an odd night where sleep evades me, I've looked in and there's always someone on, I wish your husband well, I hope you don't mind my asking and you don't have to answer,did Diabetes cause the amputation? Take care of yourself too dunnitall xxx

[andres]

dunnitall----Another way to get on this site would be to google--CISFAUK,

[dunnitall]

Thanks Bobbi yes it's diabetes but a shock as it's always been managed well and it developed from a 'place' on his toe which they were hoping to manage but unfortunately it was too bad and so they made the decision to amputate.

[Bobbisox1]

So sorry to hear this dunnitall, my OH has it too, it's a ticking time bomb xxxx

[dunnitall]

How right you are Bobbi I do hope it doesn't turn into something like this for him xxx