Of course you aren't, and of course you don't. I suspect that's why you like Trump.
Sadly there's not much evidence that anyone who supported Trump has quite "got it" yet. Maybe they never will. Anyone who's been had, conned so deeply as his supporters have been, will struggle to admit the truth to themselves.
There was an interesting piece in the New York Times this morning, for example, that highlighted how deeply Trump's proposed budget cuts threatened the very people who supported him (and, not incidentally, might allow him to afford tax cuts for the well-off). Here's the thing, though -- some of those realised this obvious truth, and were shocked, surprised and disheartened that the budget cuts were on the table, and *still* believed and trusted in Trump. Littered with examples like these:
"Why is building a wall more important than educating people?” asked Billy Hinkle, a Trump voter who is enrolled in a program called Tulsa WorkAdvance..."
"Another Trump supporter in the program, Tarzan Vince, put it this way: 'If he’s preaching jobs, why take away jobs?'"
" Rhonda McCracken ... who voted for Trump ... is aghast that one of Trump’s first proposals is to cut federal funds that sustain the organization [that helped her and her son escape domestic abuse ]."
As Trump himself once said, he could probably gun someone down in the street and lose no support. He really is indefensible -- but I'm sure you won't stop trying anyway.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/04/01/opinion/sunday/in-trump-country-shock-at-trump-budget-cuts-but-still-loyalty.html?_r=0