Dear Birdie, I can relate to your loss very much. I too lost my husband recently. Same situation - a release from being very unwell and I too had visited him daily for 9 months when the end came. I hope all goes well for you in the coming weeks and you have supportive family and friends.
Today I took my grandchildren to the cemetery and I showed them some artificial flowers I had pushed in the ground near the cross marker of the new grave. Later we met 7 year old's mother and he said "granny has brought him some dead flowers"
There is some humour thank goodness at our saddest times!