Depression, I Can't Deal With This :/

[MrFoley]

I hate to bring my problems to the internet but I am really struggling dealing with depression! had a really s*hit childhood, was abused both sexually and physically by my step dad who is now in prison after being found guilty for doing it to me and his sisters daughter.

It ripped my family apart, my own mother and brothers no longer talk to me because they all think we both lied :/ it's ripped my life in shreds and I really can't take feeling like this any more, I am only 23...

I sit typing this with tears dropping down my face :/

[MrFoley]

I went to see my GP today and he was very understanding and has referred me to see a Psychiatrist, he also took me off Sertraline and put me on fluoxetine to see if that will help.

:)

[ladyalex]

Well done, Mr Foley and well done your GP too for changing the antidepressant and referring you on.
Chin up.
You will feel better.

[seekeerz]

That's very good to hear MrF please keep in touch, will be thinking of you

[Canary42]

That sounds more promising - hope you soon begin to emerge from this terrible condition.

[gness]

Hello MrF....Good to know your GP is helping and you will feel better for having someone to talk to.

Keep in touch..we are all concerned about you and want to see you happy and enjoying life.
Always Room in chatterbank if you feel like it. Love Gx

[TheHangman]

Nice to see you back Foley, that's a big step in itself.

[MadMen]

Not read through the other comments, but it would be really really wise to contact your GP.
If you don't feel you can do this, then please do pick up the phone and speak to The Samaritans 08457 90 90 90
They won't judge, they'll just listen. Sometimes, this is enough... :-)

[Mass_Hysteria]

MadMen look at 18:10

[flump1]

Mr Foley, good to see the update, well done on returning to your gp. Give it a little time and you will start to feel better. Hugs from me xx

[sandyRoe]

If you live in the NOrth of Ireland you could get help here.

http://www.nexusinstitute.org/

[MadMen]

Mass, yep, I just saw that after I posted. Doh :(

[Mass_Hysteria]

Great to see you've taken the step and seen your GP. Follow the advice you're going to get, be positive and look forward to better things.

[MrFoley]

Thank you all for your kind words, I really do appreciate them all.

My G.P phoned my earlier and asked me if I wanted to start taking Propanolol to help with the anxiety. I told him I would get back to him on that until I read more about the drug.

Does any one know much about Propranolol?

[gness]

Evening MrF. Good that your doctor is taking steps to help you. All I know about propranolol is that my OH took it for years for irregular heartbeat. He had no side effects.
You can only try these things to see if they help. You sometimes need medicine to get you started to be able to deal with things on your own and you have a lot to deal with.
You'll get more answers about this drug I'm sure. Is there anything in particular you are concerned about?

[Mass_Hysteria]

Check tomorrow Mr Foley for more answers, it's a bit late now. Stay positive!!

[MrFoley]

Not yet Gness, but im sure I will have some in the coming days :)

[karenmac60]

Mr F, my friend takes propanolol for anxiety and she has improved so much since she started. She used to have crippling panic attacks and at one point ended up being put in a locked ward in a hospital in Spain cos she had such a bad attack in the hotel she was staying in. When she got back the dr started her on propanolol and she has come on in leaps and bounds. I can't remember the last time she mentioned having an attack or feeling anxious and she has had some major upheavals in her personal life recently. Previously these would have turned her into a wreck but she has coped well with everything and I think a lot of that is down to the tablets.

[NOX]

I had a very similar childhood to you Foley, and a very angry destructive younger adult life where I was happy to take out any anger and frustration I felt on anyone at all who happened to be in my path. At night I was a sobbing, unintelligible wreck and predictably became addicted to alcohol and drugs to blur it all away. Compared to the way I hadnled things you already deserve a medal. You are doing all of the right things, you're seeking professional help, taking notice of that professional help and understanding that there is nothing wrong in needing assistance to deal with the way other people's actions have made you feel.
I know you have tried various things that haven't worked for you but in conjunction with the medications you're now taking they may well, so don't rule out anything just because they have't worked once, so keep trying NLP, CBT etc and the one thing which really helped me and is free is exercise. I'm 52 now and I run about 12 miles per day plus other stuff soemtimes and the difference in my moods and abilities to cope if I don't do a reasonable amount of exercise is really marked. Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing and we are always here to tlak to if you just need a sounding board- there are more people with abusive backgrounds than you might think on here, and we're an ever ready ear should you need us.

[MrFoley]

The reason I went to the police in the first place was to protect my niece and nephew, who are the time of the reporting were only 2 & 3 years old...I walked in home new years day morning (2010) to find my step dad sitting on his chair in the living room with his hands next to my nieces groin and this just brought flash backs and he had to be stopped. God knows what he was doing before I got back, my mum was sleeping at the time.

And now all I get now from my so called brothers is nothing but s*it for trying to protect them...maybe one day in the future when they have grown up (niece and nephew) they will know why I did what I did for them.....