What Do I Do, When I Love A Person That I Know Will Never Ever Love Me.
What do I do, when I love a person that I know will never ever love me, and I also know that I am annoying to that person, she bypasses me in the game, and she also already knows that I love her. But when I search in google what to do it says that I need to forget the person and start liking another person, but I really can't because I only love her and I don't really care if I won't feel good, if I will be alone all life. But from the other side what will be the point then, and if I will never stop loving her, will I live alone to my death? That person Is also says that she is always bored, but how am I annoyed to her then? Is there something else she will never love me? Maybe it's because I was born In a wrong body (feminine), or is it anything else. I also thing sometimes that she is too perfect for me, and that I am so bad. But when I look at myself another time, I can do a lot of things like I am good at soccer, at basketball, I don't make anyone feel bad or anything, and I share her all my secrets, I give her presents everyday, I think about her, I want sex with her, I want to kiss her, and hug her, but she wouldn't like any of these, I give her money, even if I know that it's not good to buy a heart. Idk what to do, what to feel, and I am mad. Not mad at her, because I love her, and only, but I am mad at myself for being annoying, I am mad at my life, at everything. When I start thinking that it's all because of my gender, I know it would be easier, but then I probably won't meet her, and I won't wish that if I had to wish something that will come try. Sorry that you had to read all that, I just want something rather that crying, and mad.