Nailit, don't forget we are children of our times, brought up in the post enlightenment world that contributes to our worldview which is predominantly naturalism, and so anything that challenges this is bound to be uncomfortable and at a disadvantage.
Look at the worldview being formed right now in our young people?
Most have a worldview dominated by Google, Twitter, what's app, Instagram, and a manic need to know the opinions of acquaintances a hundred times a day.
The still small voice of God is easily drowned out, and so it is easy to label it immoral and bunkum without careful consideration of all of the facts, and trying to do this in the face of criticism from militant atheism is even more difficult.
Anyway, I think you are more agnostic than atheist, and crack on with your study.
Just one thing though, reading cover to cover must have some benefits, but also investigating various themes in depth might also help, as it does me.
What bible version do you use?