Sorry Alec, you had referred to being with the First British Regiment in the past. For some reason I thought there might have been one particular 'act' that had so profoundly affected you. I realise now that that one 'act' is the all-encompassing encounter with the Nazi Concentration Camp which I thank you for not going into detail about as I know from reading just how horrific that was. And I sympathize with Jake's point that people can lose faith when confronted with 'Evil' - as did happen after the War to many.
But I think it takes a great deal of strength to be an Aetheist as much as it does to believe, if not more. Jake you say you find it a strange idea 'to believe in something because of what you get out of it' and that believers are 'totally blind to the fact that logic plays no part in their decision to believe or not.' I was quite moved with what you wrote. I think people turn to faith for a number of reasons personal, family, bereavement, lifestyle etc. I can only talk for myself and to be honest, some people can have so much sh1t in their life that even though I was not brought up in any religion or had even heard of God other than through tele, I am the biggest believer of God in my family.
To deal with all the cr@p, I find it quite logical to have a belief as a means of survival in maintaining my sanity from day to day and with day to day experiences. I saw a Psychiatrist and a Psychologist for afew weeks before I decided that they were not only mad but unhelpful. (My experience) So you're right when you say that non-believers can only play games.