Jake, I suppose I should know better but am I mistaken in suspecting that you're suggesting the possibility that perhaps I might benefit from some psychiatric help? Well, sure I've considered that possibility on a number of occasions but given the disproportionately high rate of suicide amongst mental health professionals, somehow I just can't bring myself to go through with it. I might find it somewhat reassuring and indeed quite comforting just knowing that someone out that cares enough about my welfare to share their concern were it not for the knowledge that at any moment, life as we know it might cease to exist with the arrival of one of perhaps millions of black holes wandering aimlessly through our galaxy. Strange as it might seem to some I find the prospect of coming to such an end comforting . . . in relation to the prospect of being subjected by a whimsical god to an eternal torment in hell. I can't say with certainty that explains why I find the misspelling of atheist somewhat disconcerting but I have wondered at times whether my mother wouldn't sooner see me burn in hell than hear me confess to being an atheist. Such is the power of religious conviction over the mind which has abandoned reason.