Overwhelmed

[jennyjoan]

Have got a bit overwhelmed with torturing myself of old issues and also thinking of what friends have been through and so positively. I wonder why I can't be positive with my past issues. I have been crying softly there but it has brought on a fierce nosebleed.

I worry about the past and I worry about the future of which I have no control but the future does frighten me.

I didn't want to ring friends up at this time of night - it wouldn't be fair - never the sick ones and and anyway aren't most sane people in bed by this time.

I just blew up mentally but have calmed down and the bleeding is subsiding - I just wonder what the funk is it all about. No wonder Yogi wouldn't invite me to his party - I couldn't blame him LOL.

Thanks for letting me talk and maybe getting it off my chest.

I always all my life always went over old old ground when I think of the risks I took, crashes I had, the shootings I had and more crashes - thank god never my fault. - but it has left me that I should have been far more badly injured. like walking with the shooting of the leg - coulda been my eye - my head, my back - spinally injured. It has been a long time since I have thought of all this but it just came gushed to the fore. All the deaths in the family young and old, and more to come.

Sorry for being morbid. Thanks for listening

[Togo]

Afternoon JennyJ. Your post last night was after I had gone to bed, and I am so glad that a few night owls were here for you. Just saw Yogi flash through latest posts and had a look in. I do hope you are feeling a little better today,. I couldn't really add anything to what was said last night, except to tell you that I do know how you feel sometimes. I have a sibling who sometimes feels just like you described it, so have some inkling of your plight. I know that you look through the threads, so you also know that the "Bank" can be somewhat boisterous at times. Regardless of that most of the people are at heart actually caring and considered when it comes down to it. I hope that you can gradually find a little respite from you troubles and continue to call the "Bank" whenever you feel the need.

[jennyjoan]

Thanks for your post Togo - nice of you to reply.

task 1 - hoovered the stairs (what twice LOL) up and when coming down.

task 2 - cleaned the cutlery drawer and washed and dried all the cutlery.

task 3 - hope to make some necessary phonecalls - maybe an actual visit to a friend who has been giving off to me in that I never call to her - which I don't.

That's all folks!

[yogi-bear]

Well done, sweetie x

Now, go and make yourself a nice hot drink, relax and plonk yourself down and enjoy making your calls..:-)

I'm making calls or emails to clients and potentials....doing rather well actually, as mostly got through or back to me straight away......thanking DJ mates who have covered any work I've had, since recuperating, last few weeks.....so making progress, Conne.....

I am now going to make myself a nice cup of tea and have a ginger nut biscuit to dunk.

Enjoy the rest of your day, JJ xx