I am guessing you are in the USA, in which case I do not know how your local law operates, but if you are young then I cannot believe any authority would force you to live with your grandparents against your will, particularly if there are concerns about their suitability as guardians. If you have only just found out about your grandparents, how do you know they are drunks? There are lots of issues going on for you at the moment, I am not surprised that you want to talk to someone. It is difficult for the contributors to this site to give you advice, perhaps there is someone you trust at the grouphome who you could talk to? If you want to email someone in confidence about your thoughts and feelings you could try Samaritans (www.samaritans.org) - you can email anonymously and someone will reply to you. They cannot give you practical advice but can maybe help you sort out how you are feeling without having to reveal your inner thoughts on a public site such as this. Good luck.