As an infant/toddler my biological parents dropped me and neglected me which lead to me having 3 skull fractures within a 4 day timespan. I was bounced back and forth between a few foster living arrangements. At one point I lived with my sisters mom while she was pregnant with my sister(biological fathers side) she said I would sleep in my closet and scream bloody murder when it came time for a bath.. she said she always suspected some type of molestation because I acted very strangely. Screaming in my sleep stuff like that. When my sister brought up the subject of me being molested( first time I have ever heard of the incident) my whole body felt hot like I wasn’t in my body anymore I was just there.. she told me to talk to her mom and she told me the previously stated signs I had of sexual abuse. Physical abuse was definitely presented which lead to me being adopted. I’m very thankful to be adopted but processing this is a lot and I don’t really know how to feel. I was an infant so I don’t remember any of the abuse but that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen...I’m not sure how to cope..supposed to get a new therapist in a few weeeks....
You certainly need talking therapy and hopefully that will help you somewhat in making sense out of something so dreadful and learning how to go on from here.
I wish you all the very best, you certainly deserve it.
I'm sorry as I can't help you, apart from to say I hope you are able to build a rapport with your therapist and talk this all through. You need help to come to terms with what happened and lay at least some of the ghosts to rest. I hope it's the start of a happier and more settled part of your life.
Riley, I hope the new therapist helps... it may be the case that you never find out what exactly did or didn't happen, but what matters is how you feel about it and how it affects you now. And they should be able to help you move on from there.
Best wishes xx