My ex tells me every day that he loves me and wants to be with me. My current guy is devotedly in love with me However I think the both manipulate me in their way. My ex had an affair, and though I still love him, and am devoted to him, I don't want to live with him again. My present guy - I don't love him, but can't seem to be without him either. Is that in any way similar to you? As I said tho, I think they both pull my strings and one of these days I will work it out!