Emilia: I believe your interest in pursuing this profession is honourable. Indeed, it can be fascinating.
My own experiences are diverse & from a different perspective than the role you�re pursuing. I am exposed to the cessation of life on a regular basis. It may be in the embracing love of a family where the dying follow a fairly predictable social process, i.e., decedent � mortuary- funerary prep � presentation - disposition. And of course, the other percentage that represent: decedent � coroner query � confirmation � funerary prep � presentation � disposition. These two equations would be, in most circumstances, the norm. And in this context, I would say it�s all quite easy.
Where the circumstances change is when the formula is different. I�ve spent countless hours in Eastern European morgues, either trying to match children�s bodies with photos and sketchy identification details, or handing a few pounds to the morgue attendant to help me bag up the partial or mutilated remains of a child. These are images that remain with me and never leave.
I have no difficulty with fluids or odours, except for burnt flesh. Those are the only instances where I�ve found difficulty with odours.
Finally, I would suggest that it doesn�t matter how seasoned a professional you are, be it from the field of forensic science or from my own. The miracle of the human body � its mechanisms, its layers, and all the intricacies that allow it to house that unique spark, is a journey that that will intrigue and fascinate you to the end of your days.
And who knows, it may inspire you to search deep within yourself to understand the mystery of that nucleus that burns within you.
I wish you well
Fr. Bill