goodness ruby, no wonder you're in turmoil, I wrongly assumed you'd had treatment & were wondering "what now?".
All I can say is take one day at a time, concentrate on staying strong & getting well, I hope you've got friends & family although it's not always easy to talk to them I know. These days there are (supposed to be) specially trained nurses & counsellors, don't be afraid to ask to speak them about your concerns, and find forums with people who are going through the same thing. If only I'd had the internet!
Take care, & wishing you every success with your treatment x
*in my previous post I should have written won't develop another type at some point.