quit my job

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so here it is in a nutshell have had a job on a childrens cancer ward for a few weeks, today found a little boy age two dead , his mum had been told it would be a few hours and was asleep in the chair next to him.
i have worked in care for years but this has beaten me emotionally i thought i would be strong enough to cope with situations like this but not so. Have told my ward manager i cant go back. There are some people who can do this and i admire them but, im just not strong enough. Having a few days out and going back to care for the elderly. Yes it is not nice when they pass on, but at the end of 90 plus years you accept it. I cannot comprehend a 2 year old being taken by such a cruel disease