Not nice thoughts...

[tinkerbell23]

I KNOW im like a broken record!

And iv had ALL the advice under the sun!!!! (which i am following honest)

Have a bath run, had my tablets plus a few kalms....
Awaiting councelling...


Usually the daft thoughts brought on the panic and then i was ok...

But past few days the silly thoughts have been 10x worse :0(

Dont know why! Ive had diarreah and im also wretching with the big ball of fear in my stomach.....

Wish i knew why theyve gotten worse...when ive made positive steps this week.

Ive kept busy and kept in company but i keep having to take deep breaths and just cant shake the feelings....even trying to fall asleep is so hard because i cant switch off- that includes when i have meditation earphones in and my tablet that makes me sleepy :0(

Just wanted to say really. I know ive had all
Of the most amazing advice xx

[Gavmacp]

Sunflower,
I know it makes absoloutly no sense at all! As a nurse I am often asked where is the evidence or research and to be quite honest it makes no sense to me but it just worked!

[Gavmacp]

Tinkerbell,
"it's not actually important"
Are usually the most important!
You will not get away with throw away comments like that in counselling!
I did try though!!!

[karenmac60]

Hi tinks, i haven't read all the answers due to lots of wine so i don't know if this has been mentioned. You said in the past that you had a bad relationship previously. You mentioned in the past few days you are seeing someone and you had your first fight. Could any of this be related to your recent anxiety? Either the fight or just the fact you are seeing someone and that leaves you feeling vulnerable - if someone else you trusted hurt you then why should you trust this new guy? Just try to remember that your current is not your ex and don't let past relationships sour future happiness. You remind me so much of my best friend. She is the bubbliest person you could meet but due to an ex has crippling panic attacks which have just ruined a perfectly good 5 year relationship with a really nice guy. Don't let it happen to you x

[tinkerbell23]

I did have panic when i had the job though too- i remember my first one and i do blame my ex for triggering them ....

I liked the tapping at the very least it distracts me and makes me focus!!!!!

Karen...i was having them quite bad before- admittedley the argument did make me panic a bit that id ruined things? And a tiny bit of me is waiting for it to all go t*ts up...... I do trust him though my ex was a different kettle
Of fish altogether!!!!!!!!!! And i learned big lessons from the way he was - if anything im more secure about myself and what i do and dont want from a relationship...

Think also my birthday and qualifying from uni are big changes? No job? And at a stage in my life where loads of pals are settling down and im thinking about what i want? Kids? Marriage? I mean in general!!! Think thats making me wobble a bit xx

[karenmac60]

Just take things as they come tinks. There's no need to have some deadline for having your life sorted out. In fact, the more you rush the more likely you are to make mistakes. I was 'settled' at 20, but i wasn't happy till a was 34 - in totally different circumstances and with a different man. Don't be in too much of a rush x

[tinkerbell23]

Cheers karen xxxx

This is one of the worst parts .... Im so sleepy but cant drop off... Head is full xx

[tinkerbell23]

Uurgh :0(


Keep jolting back awake! :0(

And a reaaally sore right arm and hand :0/ sniffle

[The_Light_Knight]

There is nothing wrong is being a broken record asking the same question again if you're not satisfied with the answer. Atleast you're being true to yourself.

You see the sub-conscious mind is like fertile land... where we sow the seeds of our thoughts/behavior/ideas... Now as much as we'll water our thoughts, as much as they'll grow... Like in your case, you've watered the panic thoughts.

Its good to keep busy and you should find good company, but where in life is got so bad that you have to run from your own self :)

If I tell you to not think about an elephant, your mind will first think about elephant only! So if you obsess over NOT thinking about panicking thoughts, that'll all that you'll do...

There is a meditative breathing technique - where one quickly inhales and exhales a lot of time.. to create a void in the head for like 15min., if done properly.. when a disciple encounters such a technique he says "wow! that's such a great shortcut! "
But that technique has such a big side-effect which only the master could've told the disciple... Because of quickly inhaling and exhaling a lot of time, and stopping the thoughts FORCEFULLY for some time - the thoughts then GUSH in like anything after that ! So in actuality - the disciple is getting further away from the state of no-mind... :D

The only way to disseminate fear is to face it...
Whats making your mind have those silly thoughts? Undo that from the root.. rather than believing that you're a broken machine of a human body that is just having silly thoughts naturally !

Anyways, I'm against the modern day "councelling" - it is so mechanical ! Like you're just labelled "not-fit" in your mind! it creates such a victim-mindset !
I hate it all...
I'm even against pills for everything ! destroys the liver.. and one relies too much on them... its just like that breathing technique ! :D
Making you feel better for a while... but the problem is actually never dealt with...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0btJHqGY0l8