Hanpet, why do you love him? what is he giving to YOU in this relationship? It sounds as if you have a bit of low self-esteem - if he gives you a bit of security, that's not worth hanging on to, you say yourself it's "the drippings". Do you have anywhere to do if you leave? whose house do you live in? If I were you, I'd re-evaluate your life. He's treating you like a skivvy, nothing more, not a respected partner. What can you love about that?