I don't think anyone can help me figure this out, right now at least, but I'm really confused about it. I have a friend who feels the same so I was wondering if there was anything we could hear to make us feel less worries and confused. I'm doing this for him more than myself.
I have many gay friends who have children, who thought they were straight for years and years, until they met THAT special person who changed everything for them. Sexuality is not always clear cut. It works on a sliding scale, with those who knew they were gay at the age of 4 at one end, and Sqad at the other. Who knows what will happen in the future, the best thing is not to try and label yourself, or anyone else.