Am I crazy?

[estie]

Following up from the post below about first loves...

I had a huge crush on one boy from the time I was 9 years old until I was 14. We never dated, and I don't think he ever returned my affections. Fast forward 12 years, and for the past 3 years for some reason I have thought about him quite a bit, and I have even dreamt about him once or twice. I have googled him and tried to find him, with no success. Am I crazy?

[meely]

Crazy? no. I think that it's pretty normal, and mabye you should tell this guy how you feel. mabye he feels that same way too.

[DiscoStu]

Am I reading this right?

You've been dreaming about a 14 year old boy? And that doesn't bother you? You're 26! If you haven't seen him since then, then the last memory you have of him is as a boy. I'd be worried... ;)

[Lisax]

lol ignore stu.... its perfectly normal to wonder what he's like now etc just remember though if you do contact him you may not have the same feelings as you did as a teenager x

[PurpleLinzi]

Hi Estie,

I think this is pretty normal but you maybe have to look a bit deeper as to why you are thinking about him a lot recently.  Has something happened in your life recently that has left you feeling like crap.  Maybe you're digressing into something / someone you 'knew' was safe and that's what the root of the problem really is.  Also, is he not on friends reunited?  If not, will there be others on there that will know where he might be and where to contact him?

Am I rambling?  I know what I mean!

xx

[estie]

You're completely right, Linzi. Every time I have a rough period in my life, I start thinking about him. I suppose it doesn't really have anything to do with him at all! And Stu and Lisa, you're both right, there is no way this guy is going to be how I remember him, and if he is then I wouldn't be attracted to him now anyway! I think that's why I haven't tried particularly hard to find him. I know loads of people who migh be in touch with him, but I haven't asked. Thanks all... I think I will stick to dreaming about him and not try to make it a reality.